superhero complex

when i was younger i wanted to be a superhero. i was obsessed with batman and spiderman. i was so sure that i was gonna grow up to be batman. i wish i would have kept that drive. i was about 8 when i read my first batman comic. in highschool i started lifting weights...everyday...for hours. taking weight gainers and protines. i became obsessed with being a big, citzen protecting motherfucker. somewhere between junior year and now, i lost my drive. thinking back on it now i was doing realy good. i worked my ass off everyday with a smile on my face. imagine a 5'9 100lb nerd trying outlift guys twice his size...and actualy getting close to succeding. i wish i didnt loose that drive. dont get me wrong, i know im not gonna be batman...im not insane....anymore..... lol.. anyway i think back on how driven iwas.. my body would literaly be in unbearable pain and i would still go to the gym like it was nothing. i think its time to become a superhero again.... i mean as far as how i see myself.. not like actualy going out at night beating the shit out of people. im talking about improving myself the way i feel i should. i was a crazy little fucker and i miss being that because i was happy. i had a goal and nothing would stop me from getting there. ive been watching alot of superhero movies lately and it got me inspired. im kinda turning into a lazy slob which is not what i would have wanted for myself. anyway play batman arkham assylum its fuckin bad ass