fml

Either I did something really shitty and this is karma kicking me in the balls... Or I have a shit ton of good things coming my way soon. Gawdamn I'm hating lif right now.. Guess ill just keep hope and push through it. Life is making me develope some serious body armor

The calm little center

Laying in bed. Thinking about the past year. I've been taking life too serious. I need to take better care of my own mental health. No more drama, no more needless arguments. Be a calm center in my own self. Zen like, passive, quiet, no anger. Life has a way of working its self out to give you what you want and deserve. Stay possitive and focused. Everything will work out.

machine building 101

the military has a process in which they tear down a person mentally and physically and then build them back up. a reprogramming i guess you could call it. kind of in the process of doing this to myself... im broken mentally and physically at the minute but i am recovering and getting stronger in both categories. building a better machine. am i obsessing over myself too much? i guess maybe i am or maybe i havent payed enough attention to myself to realize that what i need is in fact a big fat dose of "break down and rebuild". i thought i knew what it felt like to be in this process. i thought i went through this before a year ago.. but this year showed me i didnt know shit. ive never felt stronger and ive also never felt weaker.. but i wouldnt have it any other way because i know what im gonna get in the end

naked mo' fucka.... fightin everyone

somedays i feel like Bronson.... bare ass naked, locked in a cage, fightin with everyone

you think i aint worth a dollar.... but i feel like a millionaire

the phantom club

so, due to the current changes in my life i have decided to go full force and fuck some shit up. i will be putting together my website soon and updating my youtube channel. on this website you will find my art, art for sale, my tattoo portfolio and shirts(coming soon). i dont know why i put this off for so long but.. i guess no time is better than now. keep an eye out

bones

i am a product of my current environment.. i dont like what i have become. my job and my character have been stained. i need to fix myself. lets call it spring cleaning. i have alot to do. my body needs to be fixed, relationships to repair and skills to develope. the party has gone on long enough to not be fun anymore. i need to go back to the begining. i need to become a better person for my family, my daughter and my girlfriend. not only have i strained relationships by being a completly selfcentered dick, but i have also strained the integrity of my job and hobby which i love completely by being an unprofessional....self centered dick haha. i have become exactly what i didnt want to become and the exact opposite of what made me stand out from other people to begin with. over the past year and a half i have become a caricature of myself. i need to get back to being joe and not fuckin "bones", as cheesey as that may sound, it makes alot of sense to me and im sure if you knew me 3 years ago it will make sense to you too. TIME TO CLEAN HOUSE!!!! i suggest if you are reading this to do the same. if something isnt right, fix it.. its simple. COME GET A TATTOO BY JOE THIS WEEK>> hes better than bones anyway hahaha.. have a good day

p.s. my girlfriend is the shit, i am very lucky to have her and...... cheesecake factory tonight!