stress and drama

who would have thought there would be so much drama in the tattoo world. i dont want to be involed in it. i just want to tattoo. i dont care about whos trying to steal who from a shop or whatever the fuck it may be. fact is, ive been loyal....110% but i will not involve myself in stupid childish bullshit. if there is going to be a fight over someone trying to steal me or whoever from the shop, i will not get involved. i want no part of it. its a stupid fight to pick. offers were made and we did not leave. ive stood up for the shop already... i do not need to prove myself anyfurther. i will not get in a fight with someone i dont know over this. i dont want any enemies.

revelations

so here i sit... drinking a tall jack and coke...tired. im very tired today. i sat in the shop for 7 hours... bored as shit. it shouldnt be like that. i should be painting, drawing, creating, tattooing. but no, i find it realy hard to focus in that neon green room. things should be diffrent. somtimes (pretty much all the time) i feel like i should be apprenticing. there is alot i dont know.... i need to know. sometimes (on rare occasions) i feel like im making good progress but im not at the level i need to be. im not improving fast enough.... im not at matt shamahs level, im not at bert kraks level, im not at derek nobles level, im not at todd nobles level, ect.. ect.. ect. i know, theyve been tattooing 10+ years or whatever but i need to get to their level. i want to be respected. man im drunk.


Fuck Megan Fox..... thank you and goodnight