Bodybuilder problems

I guess I'm considered a bodybuilder now. My life consists of eating,supplementing, sleep and lifting in between periods of being at work or with my daughter. I'm unmotivated today. I'm tired and still hurting from last week. Is this really all worth it? What am I doing this to myself for? Lol and why am I sitting in my car in front of golds hurt and tired, drinking a pre workout when I want to be at home in bed? .. I guess it's habit now. I have to be here. I have to grow. Got to get motivated. Well.... Time to do chest.